Life's Teaching Moments

The holidays are officially here.

And this year that was full of difficult, life-changing decisions? Is almost over.

I can't say I'm not excited to see 2011 coming to its end. But this year that was so hard? Has taught so much.

That I am stronger than I thought.

That I can make it.

That some days? Are definitely harder than others.

That tears are ok.

But that through tears? There is laughter.

That I love with everything I have.

That slipping and tripping up sometimes? Happens.

That friends who care about you, are always there.

That sometimes all a girl needs? Is some sunshine.

That family is there for the ups and downs and everything else.

And that those who were once the tight, close, support system? Life is sometimes better off without them.

That jobs can come and go. But that this school program is only once, so those lessons? Are invaluable.

I started this blog because I had a lot of time on my hands. I'm going to continue it this upcoming year. Because being able to look back is important, and growing through struggle is vital. I stopped writing frequently because I didn't have a whole lot to say that was funny. Or well, that I thought was funny and worth sharing.

But sharing is important. Writing is important. Maintaining positive relationships is important. Taking chances are important. Learning is important. And in the last months that I have left in Albany before graduation in May? I'm going to do all of those things. Check back for a new blog.

Hope. Change. Believe. Strength. Love. Faith. Breathe.

For. The. Love.

Music for each and every day

I have recently discovered Pandora, the free internet radio.

((Yes, I understand it's 2011, and I have graduated from college in the past 4 years, and had a full time job. Yes, I understand I should have found Pandora a long time ago.))

That is neither here, nor apparently there.

Pandora seems to understand all of my musical whims before I even know what they should be. It is.... freakish. As in, it literally plays the songs and the artists that I want/need to hear in that very moment before I sort of lead it in the right direction.

It senses my moods in my fingertips. Weird, yes? Anyone else with the Pandora knowing what it is they should play for you before you know it yourself? Does it creep ANYONE else out?

Side note. I am looking for a large, overstuffed chair for my living room. Got any great suggestions?

Yes, this is rambly. Get over it, or close me out.

Ugh, I am seriously trying to write, with serious writer's block. What a fail!!

Quick update on life: my last post? Pretty dark. Sorry for that. Life has had it's ups and downs recently (duh) and sometimes my moods and desires to do anything, whether it's writing or going out can be victim to those swings. I've been working like crazy, and last week acted like I was in college for one too many nights. My poor liver (Dear liver, again, my apologies).

I have started a garden.... alas, the sun that I thought my porch would get? Doesn't last as long as it needs to. My plants may or may not make it. Guess time will tell..

I'm trying to come up with a great trip for the summer. I'm thinking Boston for a couple of days because well... 1) I love it there and 2) it's close enough but far enough to get out of Albany. Or who knows, maybe Texas to visit JS. I am missing you, friend and am wishing you were closer more than ever these days <3

As another note, I'm back on facebook. I loved the hiatus, but it was time to rejoin. I am going to be a stickler though, and I'm not reloading it back on the blackberry. Because that's just insanity, and well.... I'm facebook clean right now. And it feels gooooood.

... So clearly...

I haven't blogged in a while.

My apologies.

Life, as you know it, has been changing. Yes, for the better, and yes as I am making more decisions for myself.

But it doesn't mean that I shouldn't be taking the time to write. I have missed writing.

But, my blog title doesn't make much sense anymore. Seeing as that since I have last written, I have had a birthday. So happy birthday (belated, obviously) to me. Happy 24. And a half. Plus a month.

A lot has changed around here. As in... seriously a lot.

I have moved out, deactivate facebook, no longer live with JM because we broke up.

My doing. No more tears.

Eventually, in life, decisions have to be made for yourself.

Decisions to be happy. Decisions to make the most of life. Decisions to laugh instead of cry, and to dream instead of stay. Decisions to play instead of work all the time. And decisions to be the person I have wanted to be, and stopped trying to be, for so long.

It's funny how relationships work sometimes. There are minutes that you are so in love. Minutes that you can't imagine life without someone else. And then those minutes turn into hours, you stay and then look back 6 months later wondering where the time went. And how you got to the point you are at.

The minutes tick by. The hours go on. Time passes whether you think it will or not. And the decision to be happy and to smile? That's one that should be present with every minute.