Monday, December 19, 2011

A tale of 2.

This blog post brought to you by the good people at the wine store. (And girlfriends, of course).

As I was driving home tonight, I was thinking over a conversation that my girlfriend and I had at dinner. A conversation about guys, life, relationships, work, and well... growing up and trying to make it work. A conversation about being ourselves and finding someone who understood that at the end of the day.... And it got me thinking.

I am sarcastic...
... because it's easy, and it's a wall.

I have walls...
... for protection from those around me.

I smile and laugh...
... when crying would be easier.

I'm a little crazy...
... because it's more fun that way.

I am strong...
... because that is my option.

I have dreams and goals...
... because I want more for myself.

I want to work with kids...
... because there is always hope.

I stand up for what I believe in...
... even when it's not popular.

I fight...
... because I have passion.

I get offended...
... because I know what I want & what I deserve.

I know how I should be treated...
... so it's what I expect.

I know how to treat others...
... so that's what I do.

I look to my grandparents (and parents)
love and devotion...
... and know it must be out there for me.

I love...
... even with the risk of getting hurt.

I trust...
... when I sometimes shouldn't.

I believe...
... because I know that love exists and endures.

It doesn't make coming home to an empty apartment much easier though. Sometimes? It's nice to have a hand to hold while going through the difficult parts in life.

Martina McBride has a new song, called "I'm gonna love you through it," and while it's a song about a woman who is just diagnosed with breast cancer and her husbands statement that he will always be there, these lyrics bring tears to my eyes every time. It is a song like this, that makes me remember my mom's words to me as well, "Someday, there will be a man who will accept and love all of you. He will be strong enough to handle everything you bring to the table." -Here's hoping, Mom!

When you're weak, I'll be strong
When you let go, I'll hold on
When you need to cry, I swear that I'll be there to dry your eyes
When you get lost, scared to death
Like you cant take one more step
Just take my hand, together we can do it
I'm gonna love you through it

So, if you made it this far?

I think after Christmas? It's time for a pet.

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Starbucks Gratitude

So, as I am sitting here at Starbucks (it must be the end of the semester) writing papers, sipping quietly out of my holiday red cup, listening to my Pandora stations, I am struck by how the holidays change people.

People aren't angry to be standing in line, waiting for their caffeine jolt. They are smiling. They are talking to the ones around them. There are kids bringing their baristas presents.

And they are happy.

And that, my friends, is what the holidays are all about. Smiling at those around you. Trying to make someone elses' day just a little bit better, because well.... you can. Paying for someone elses' coffee because it's the holiday spirit. Slowing down just a bit during this ever so hectic season to look up and see what's going on around you.

And being thankful for it.

Sap post. Get over it. :)

((This last paper is due tomorrow. Which means there will be plenty of new blogs in the next couple of weeks. But seriously? I can only write so much.))

Do something nice for someone today. Smile. Hold the door.

It's the holidays.